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Oh good grief. I just finished watching the Japanese movie Heavenly Forest and now I can’t stop bawling my eyes out. And I make it a point never to cry while watching movies. It was just so sad!! But a really good movie all the same. Lots of funny stuff in it too - I very highly recommend it. *sniff* I think I better go watch some xxxHolic: Kei to cheer me back up again now.

It seems that as of late I’ve been spending a lot of time going in and out of hospitals visiting people. A few weeks back, my brother Shadowfire was admitted into hospital with appendicitis. Now my Nan is in hospital after having a brain haemorrhage. It’s strange watching how people cope with being sick. Shadowfire was practically climbing the walls to get out of hospital as his internet withdrawels kicked in pretty much immediately. Considering how sick he was, he made a pretty fast recovery in a period of a week, and through sheer willpower of not wanting to spend another minute in hospital, has made a complete recovery. This is the opposite for my Nan. When she had the brain haemorrhage, she lost function in her left arm and leg, and her speech became slurred. Nan is an extremely independent person, and happily lives by herself. She has always said she would rather be pushing up daisies instead of living in Timberbongie (the Narromine retirement home), and fears anything that would prevent her from living an independent lifestyle. Nan sees the limitations in her left side as being an interference, and has flatly vowed to herself not to get better, having convinced herself that her quality of life will never be the same. Her body is getting better everyday, and with rehabilitation, she could be up and moving again in no time. But with her stubborn mentality fixed on dying, her recovery is all but halted. And when it comes down to it, nothing can be done to change the situation but her own willpower. Read More…